Weigh in #3 & #4 (slippery slope leads to back sliding)

OK - I would think that being at home would actually spell out for actually more posts due to lack of things to do - but then again, that's me for having no clue to what a stay-at-home mom/dad actually does when there are two kids in the house under the age of three. So I haven't posted in a week or so and I'm behind on my weigh-in's - although I have done them so I'll post last weeks and today's in a combined post and try to get back onto a daily occurrence here.

Last Sunday (January 26th) - I weighed in at 241 so there was no change from the week prior. I'm not going to post those photos since they're they look the same anyway (and I figure you're getting the picture - probably to your dismay).

This week is puzzling (Feb 3rd) - I weighed in this morning at 246. That's up 5 lbs. in one week along with an overall net gain of one pound from when I started! Holy shit. The weird thing is that I don't feel "bigger" or bloated than I did at 245 a couple of weeks ago, but the proof is on the scale upstairs.

I do know that I had haven't been all that great in the last two weeks of actually being accountable. Maybe that has something to do with the frequency of my postings since this blog is only as good as me being honest and sometimes honesty can be avoided by just not posting. Guilt has a good way of reaching into all crevices of a person's life and facing reality is viewed as an admission of said guilt. So to put of posting is a way to avoid being accountable to all of you. For that, I apologize.

The Superbowl was yesterday and I gave myself a "free day" which, in the context of the last week, wasn't all that free other than I ate more yesterday than I have in a while. We had chili, cheese, artichoke dip with toasted brushetta, frosted banana bars, sugar cookies, soda, beer... You get the picture. Probably around 2000 calories just in the afternoon let along the morning and the snacking leading up to the party we hosted.

So it's possible that I'm retaining water to account for some of the weight gain and my wife had suggested that maybe I do another weigh in tomorrow morning to see if anything has changed. But it's really not the point. To be successful requires some dedication to the cause and that requires discipline.

I have somehow convinced myself that it's just a matter of thermodynamics - just eating less than I consume and the pounds should come off. That's true in every physical sense, but in that without an actual food journal for daily accountability, the "mental" notes of what's gone into the gullet aren't nearly as accurate. And when the memory slips, so do things into the mouth.

But I also have struggled with a cold turkey approach since I end up being governed by the long list of previously enjoyed foods that are now banned for life.

So I'm torn - I've found success on the South Beach Diet in the past and I've been recommended the Body For Life program. I'm thinking that the later may be the better plan (I own the book but haven't initiated the program in the past).

It's time to get back on the horse. I started off today with a bowl of oatmeal (which is filling) but I haven't planned out the rest of my eating plan today yet. Maybe I need to look at it as whole week plan so that my meals are in line with my goals and objectives.