I find it rather weird how "eating right" and what I feel is actually doing so aren't always the same thing. And how, after all of this time with diets being tried to all varying degrees that a system hasn't been agreed upon. But maybe that is the crux of the whole thing - that there isn't a universal silver bullet that cures all pains and remedies the waistline. We're all too different to expect much from that.

Take the person who has endocrine issues - a tiny fraction of a change in the thyroid can throw the whole thing off. Or emotional instability. Or genetic predispositions.

But whatever the issue is or could be, it still doesn't take away the ultimate responsibility of the person living with the issue and that a "new normal" may just be that awaited discover. Not that a person has to accept and live with an overweight body, but that self loathing isn't the solution either. You can dislike a resultant body without disliking yourself. To me, it's a consequence of poor decisions that I must remedy through diligence and hard work. And that to expect an immediate result without any effort isn't realistic. I imagine that the time it took to put the weight on will ultimately lead to the same amount of time required to take it off.

Maybe that's the appeal of pills or surgery that it's still avoiding the consequences of one's actions and that tomorrow is still too far away to wait for results.

I'm still looking for the issues of what drives the core decision making that leads to poor food behaviors. And as I uncover these I'll share them with you. Right now, I'm sure it's a bit of learned behavior from my youth and habits I picked up from my family, but also it's in how I choose to handle my emotions in that better management will help as well.